Looking for a new home . . .

So I am now looking to move from our apartment to a rental home in the area - so my days are a little more hectic than usual. I have figured out that in my current relationship - I have an overgrown child. I need to do everything in order to make sure it gets done. He cooks for me and I have very few things that I really eat at the moment since money is so tight - and you would think he is cooking for the president - that this job is the most stressful of all jobs. He cleans when he feels like it - that helps me - but that is where it ends. He plays video games, poker, has friends over, eats like an elephant, can't be asked to more because it stresses him out. Men - do they get that the stronger the women become the less we need them - that's his big thing in an argument that I don't need him - I don't. You may think I am writing this is anger - but I am truly not - just enjoying my morning tea - realizing in all my relationships I have found that each man has had various qualities that were appealing and others that were OH SO NOT appealing. The question is - which one can I live with. Needless to say - - That is the question. Recently he actually has done some things that risked my career - which should be a bit hint that I need to get out. These things also could affect his daughter . . . But I see a little boy, that should know better but doesn't. Everyone always gave up on him and it would be oh so easy to do . . . so the question is will he change? become better? The only relationships I am in anymore is if they do something for me - because I can do it alone - maybe not as easily - but I can. So if you don't benefit me - then you are out. So is he a benefit? Is he making my life better or easier? There was a great idea I read about relationships years ago - relationships need to be like a man and his garden. The man puts lots of effort into making his garden grow, he weeds, waters, cares for his garden and in return the garden will give him the fruits and vegetables of his labors. So am I getting fruits and vegetables? I think with all my stress God is preparing me for something - emergency brain surgery? I am not sure . . .

So my quote of the day I completely agree with. . . .

“You can do anything you wish to do, have anything you wish to have, be anything you wish to be.” -Robert Collier

It is just answering these questions where we get hung up . . . I am doing what I wish - but do I have what I want? Happy Monday . . .